WILL

Ones will I have been thinking about that one the last couple days. "You have a strong will." Were does ones will come from? How do we know ones will? How do we have a strong will and how do we increase the will? I want to have a strong will for the right things, not my own selfish behaviors. I don't want to do the right things for myself esteem or to make myself look better and get a righteous ego. I don't want pride.. I want to be willing to die to the things that make me weak and vulnerable or a target. I want to know my weakness and trust them in the Lord and be able to rely on His Holy Spirit to guide me and protect me. The will to be determined what the Lord is calling me to do and not afraid to do it! That is the will that I want to live by! So Holy Spirit fill your people with the will to follow you no matter what comes and to continue to trust you and die to ones self so that ones will doesn't get in the way but that the will of God will ruin in His people!

Hope... which leads to PEACE

I have to say what a year... were has is gone. I am sorry that I have not taken the time to write. To be honest it has been a year from hell. Maybe that is much... maybe not. The Lord has been faithful through it all.. not sure that I can say that I have been faithful through it all. The last year.. were to begin. My mother was diagnosed with congestive heart failure on top of other health issues. I fell in love and was destroyed. Trials that have broken me and made me yes stronger and yes... I feel even weaker at times. It truly shows how fragile life really is. I wish I could say that it has brought me closer to the Lord. In honesty not sure it has... but I now realize that it is a chose to be close to the Lord. Are we going to trust him with the things we can't explain.. the things we feel.. the things we don't want to feel.. the things we are scared about.. the things that we can't control... The list could go on!!

One thing I did learn is that God meets us in the depth of everything. He is deeper than our lowest pit... do you believe that? I know I need to remember that.. when I want to run and hind from him.. he already knows and feels my pain. He is waiting!! Oh, the power of his Holy Spirit and the comfort of his presence. That it the kind of Peace that I am taking about. Not the Peace that you know that everything is going to be okay.. but the Peace that you know everything is going to be Okay because he is there. That no matter the out come you know that you are going to be Okay because he is with you through it all.