When I enter a room... what vibe do I bring into the room? A positive attitude, negative, peaceful, anger... What would I like to bring into a room with me? How do I bless people? What would I like to bless people with...
I have been pondering these things. Have I the courage, humility, and self confidence to carry the things that I long to posies. The positive attitude, love, kindness, caring, peaceful attitude that I long to enter into the room with me. Blessing people with open arms, a smile, a hug, a prayer... encouragement that will stand in any situation. Am I brave enough? I know with the Lord all things are possible. With truth on my back and healing on my leg... it is a reminder that I serve a God that can break down walls and reveal all!!!
Judgement... where did my deep rooted judgement come from... it is so ugly. The continual revelation of it makes me sick... who am I. Tho holy woman.. ah, I think not. It was taught, trained, brainwashed, and part flesh this rooted Judgement... it comes with out thinking.. it is sadly ever where. Thank God that it is being shown to me, but it makes me sick. Our own sin should make us sick. I just hate seeing it, but it also makes me fall more in love with Jesus.
So who am I and who I want to be....
Well in honesty.. I most likely have more of an on the fence life... try to be positive, have peace and courage to live out the bold life I am called and I fall short way more then I would like to think. So how do I become the person that I want to be... die to self over and over... surrender to the one who does not see my sin and chases it into the sea. The one that forgives over and over.
My prayer... hope is here, he is here, the one I want to be can only come from a life in HIM.
